What can one love and hate more than life itself? What can one do more than life itself? What can one create more than life itself? What is more frustrating and fulfilling than life itself? What is more sad and joyful than life itself? What is more boring and exciting than life itself? What is more beautiful and ugly than life itself? What is more than life itself? Is there anything which is more than life?

Chapter 1: a human vision I am fearful. I don’t know how I could ever live in a world like this with a sense of safety and ease. Nationalism is really so wrong in my eyes. The fact that it actually matters to people, and that people don’t see through its lies, depresses me, scares me. There isn’t a single country that isn’t deeply connected to the countries around it, and that very fact makes the idea of a country or a nation seem very vapid to me. And the fact that people f

I am lost and lonely Cause ill never find it The land where not only I understand it The truth i seek to always keep I walk with bare feet On the steep Mountainsides Never knowing whats inside The caves so deep where i can hide Twist toward the dawn Toward the flame Toward the thing ill never name Maybe love wont even start But still i live with a beating heart Ive cursed the gods Ive kissed the rain Ive carved out peace from years of pain So let me fail And let me stay Let m

I have never known you And you have never cared Ill never forgive you And theres nothing true weve ever shared I still miss you I dont know the lines of your face And i dont know your name My longing is without a trace And there is no one for to blame I still miss you I still miss you

Shadows in the winter sun Want to be a part of everyone No one cares if they exist Shadows calling through the mist There are many things in this world They all cast a shadow People Cattle Buildings Trees They all cast a shadow

You will love me in the end But you will never understand What i feel might defend The trees the mountains and the sand All i wanted to see All i wanted to be Water flowing through the ether Carving canyons in my soul Even if this land might believe her I wont leave her in this hole When im walking through time I reach yesterday Tomorrow is another rhyme But today might be the day Whenever i think about it It always seems that time never stops And i only want to reach it I

Too heavy for myself I cant lift me from the shelf Im stuck and cannot move Every day i drift in moods I am trying to be sane Hold my own against the grain Nothing ever seems to change Where can i go for my light to glow? Where can i go for my light to glow? My heart is just a chain Im tethered to the coldest ground And my mind just isnt sound I am limping through my life A lamp in darkness for to find But the loneliness just leaves me blind Where can i go for my light to glo

An old man at the end of his life He is broken and disappointed With great loneliness and emptiness Delirious and fantasizing Losing clarity He did not fulfill himself And the pain only intensifies The illusion of a woman Whom he always wanted And in his life he struggled But did not succeed in what he desired To realize in his world He felt everything within himself But only the bitter sadness Was with him And it was his only friend That remained beside him As he approached

Dont kill your heart to live Dont stretch your hands to give Dont fill your mind to think Dont surpress your thoughts to sink Dont break your back to lift Dont strain your legs to stand Dont let go to receive Let go and understand Dont understand to put away Keep it safe for heavens sake Like a sea is just a lake Like the mountains are the valleys Dont believe to grieve Believe to be alive With trust in existence And with shaky persistence Become, in every ins

We dream of peace We fear the pain Yet the circle still remains If we open what we hide Let the stranger come inside To love to learn To share this world Hand in hand For all its worth Every tear, every laugh From our death to our birth To all who try to heal To live to unify Together we will testify Our family will never die We live in a storm of turning tides Where truth gets lost And fear divides But even now beneath the strain We can always begin again There’s one sky abo

Every longing a fear Every shadow a tear The mountains lean forward The valleys stretch high The stars write patterns that never die The wind hums in riddles The wound of existence becomes wisdom And in the soul illusions dissolve Yet the dream still remains A heart that is fractured still holds the chains Morning is night when we see that the light only exists in darkness so bright Everything broken is forming anew And every beginning leads back to you Evening becomes a circ

I am inconsiderate I am unfulfilled Im involuntarily running up this hill There is nothing for me on the other side But there is something in me that i cannot hide What i think comes to me From the deepest sadness What i feel comes up From the breathing darkness I am indecisive There is no conviction That can let me down In this world of friction There is nothing for me to be late to To relate to Engrained within my psyche is a red garden This revolving madness keeps me awake

We are born through heavens light In the corridors of might Where the morning meets the night We might forget we're bright If we knew just where to go We would feel think and know That the quickness is the slow Moving colour beneath the snow All I wanted was to sing Dance with joy and always bring Happiness into this world But now I only feel the cold The ground is shaking with despair As a writhe in pain and gasp for air When the waters still and trees can move I am torn bet

Is loneliness our disease? Is loneliness just trying to please Itself? By making us so appeased With our own minds Can't we try to think a different way? Can we try to differentiate Loneliness and love? My words get jumbled up When I try to express Everything that goes within I don't know if I'm blessed Or am I just a machine? Trying to find my path Through the windy streets? Trying to walk I'm trying to talk to you How do you continue loving in such a world? How do you conti

The needle is soft And stiff is the hay Nothing is wrong And weakness is strong More cultivates hope Less widens the scope If you must control us Torture us and bind us But not for to blind us If you must despise us And those of you who think that you are above us You exist in every label From the throne To the cradle You droop with disgust And those who are just Can see all the fuss Of being against As nothing but lust Being taken too far Abused and twisted into a monster th

In my mind a soft collision I erase the line of vision No definition no decision Just a pulse beneath permission Cold air drifts with indecision You cant own it of you dont hold it It forgets you exist If you don't persist You can't resist You must insist To always be this Something forms in the static world Every beginning quietly unfurles I give myself but i dont resist I ache but at least i feel this Never touching the moment folds Keeps nothing in its hold The giving of m

I'm afraid of being against Someones lie without defence Im intoxicated by this sadness I weep below inside this madness There is nothing i can do To break this boredom without a clue I feel helpless in this life Never knowing what to trust I give myself too much grief Holding on with no relief This world of strife is eating me alive I have nowhere for to strive Fearing opposition Fearing inclusion Everything collapses in endless fusion I breath i grasp but never hold A truth

The sound of bombs Piercing the night It deadens the hearts of everyone in sight This abuse of power is not real might No respect for human rights There is suffering for miles And many years of fight Propaganda which creates division Which distorts and beguiles There can be no reason For a world of bigotry In which we cannot be

The world does seem the dimmer And the colours less bright, The skies shall become an eternal doomed vale of night- For he Who drinks from the perpetual cauldron Of soul's unending flight!

That's the thing, it's going right. It went wrong for it took so long, to love myself and see the light Feel the fear yet have the might To walk through This crowded empty night And be able to ignite With my only broken heart Myself into creating art Gathering alone One apart Myself, my role On my own Only a part, of a larger whole And the real problem, Is it's ever enough And life itself, Should in freedom laugh And death is certain at the end, On that alone I might depen